I know I promised to finish my wandering Gypsy series, but I got a bit busy. So, this Blog is going to be out of place. You know that writing things down is a kind a therapeutic thing for me, yesterday something terrible happened and I'm going to try to start to process it in the way that I know best.
While out doing my job. I witnessed, what I thought was an abduction of an adult woman. While I was grabbing my phone to take a picture of the man, woman, and car, as well as dialing 911 everything went even more wrong. The man grabbed a large knife and murdered the woman and then himself. No one and I mean No One, should ever have to see this. Not to mention it just shouldn't happen. It was terrifying as well as surreal.
Strangely, although I was right there and didn't miss anything with my eyes. It was almost as if someone had lowered the volume on life to 2 bars. I really didn't hear much as if my ears were being covered. After a comment made by a friend of mine that she was glad she wasn't there because she wouldn't be able to get the screaming out of her head, I realize that this odd phenomenon was a blessing. Maybe my Angel covered my ears. I have very detailed visual recall. This is usually a good thing, but it is going to make getting the pictures out of my head very difficult.
The poor girl's mom was there and witnessed the whole thing as well. My heart is breaking for her. I can't even imagine what I would have done if it had been me and one of mine. I don't want to imagine that. No parent should have to ever go through something like that. I'm waiting for this to become real in my head. I know that it will hit me hard from out of nowhere when I least expect it. I've been down that road before.
It was such a wasted loss of life. So much ahead of both of them. My understanding is that they left a 2 yr. old behind. I hope he wasn't a witness to any of this. I didn't see him, but I wasn't looking for anyone.
The violence among humans these days is horrendous. I don't know how to change it. The only thing I know that I have total control over is me. How I behave towards others. How I manage myself. No one is perfect. There are no directions in life. We don't come with a manual that has all the answers and all the right words. We don't know how we are going to react in any situation. We can only hope that we have our hearts in the right place and try to do no harm. Hindsight in life is 20-20. Sadly, the man and the woman involved in yesterday's horror have no such luxury, to look back and change their lives going forward. We never know when our time is up. Thankfully this man did not have a gun or more lives may have been lost, including mine. That thought is a large, scary, sour, pill to swallow. He clearly had a plan. I don't believe he intended for either of them to live when he set out yesterday. Sadly, he accomplished his goal. He clearly came prepared with a very deadly weapon and it was in easy grasp in his car. It was an illegal knife to tote around, and I believe there is only one reason for doing so and that is to cause great harm.
The officer who happened to be nearby arrived on the scene too late to save anyone. He was young and riding solo. He followed the book on how to handle the situation. He was amazing when trying to help the young woman. He never lost focus. I hope that he is acknowledged for his fast response and proper actions as well as his compassion.
Be kind to each other. Try and talk things out. Don't let stuff fester. Life is short and you never know how short. Love your family and friends and let them know it. work through your problems don't just turn your back on them and hope they go away or change. Share your worries and your happiness with those you love. We all need the support of others. Life is a gift from God. Treasure, it hold it carefully and don't let it shatter you only get one.
